Keep the flame burning

I’m feeling slightly burnt out from the lack of sleep and onslaught of activities at rnf. Despite that, I felt more motivated for what I’m doing now than before.  Participating in rag led to some surprising finds about myself. For one, I didn’t expect to design a t-shirt and get it printed. All my previous experiences with photoshop have been that of adding texts, improving grainy photos and adding special effects to photos by following online instructions. It just so happens that Kun asked me to think of a design which led to us discussing with the people at rag and the ideas starting flowing which led to me trying out my mediocre skills at photoshop. It was  my first attempt at creating a fully digitalised art on photoshop and I’ve learnt a lot from this experience. Can’t wait to wear the shirt. Hee!

I suppose I do get temperamental and unrestrained in my comments when I’m suffering from a lack of sleep and muscle aches. We were at dinner just now and the conversation went on to a person Y and his title on forums. Without thought I said “he should be an asshole”. It was more of a reflex comment. I’m not sure if I really dislike him that much. Some things happened which confirmed that he’s not someone I would get close to or want to know better. As for that comment, I was pretty stun myself when Pauline reacted.

Time for sleep. -Lights out-

Hellboy muse

Just watched the telecast of “Hellboy” on chl 5. It ended off with:

“What makes a man a man? A friend of mine once wondered. Is it his origins? The way he comes to life? I don’t think so. It’s the choices he makes. Not how he starts things, but how he decides to end them. ”

Behind all the fighting, heroism and special effects, I feel that this movie brings across an important message about the judgement of character. It is a fact that we judge the people we encounter; to say otherwise would be a lie. Be it a derogatory whisper in the back of our minds about a person’s skin colour or whether the sides of our eyes wrinkle when we laugh at a joke by someone, we unvoluntarily form words to describe that person. The sad fact is that most people judge a person by his physical appearance, something that is inherited and difficult to change.

What makes us shun people who are very different from us is “fear” and “lack of knowledge”. The monsters portrayed in the movie are equipped with the capabilities to kill people and thus, injected fear into the general population but that doesn’t mean they do not have the faculty to make wise choices. It is therefore very important not to judge and dismiss a person too quickly.

Speaking of which, this reminds me about a recent conversation I heard about a guy that have high physical expectations where is comes to choosing a partner in life. I’ve heard many times the first few things men say when asked about the type of girls they go for. It will go something like long hair, big eyes…blah blah blah before intelligence for example. Sometimes even the last bit of inner beauty is not even included in their list. What then are they offering in return? If only they judged themselves first.